I'm not sure why, but last night I had a dream that I had walked up on the scene where Ozzy Osbourne guitarist Randy Rhodes was killed. The accident occurred in March, 1982, when Rhodes was persuaded to take a ride in a plane piloted by the tour bus driver. The pilot decided to "buzz" the tour bus where Ozzy was sleeping. The wing clipped the bus, tearing it apart, and the plane crashed into a nearby home.
The dream scene was quite vivid. It was early in the morning, the sun was just coming up, and there was dew all over the grass. A light fog covered the field. In the dream I saw the debris, the smoke, and everyone was walking around crying and in shock, but I couldn't hear them. I could only hear soft music playing. I was there, but removed from the scene. They were in slow motion, but I was not. I felt unusually calm, like I had read the story in complete detail several times, and already knew what had happened.
I don't know what made me dream this. I had not seen anything about a plane crash, Randy Rhodes, or Ozzy during the day. It was just one of those strange things that happens.
A codependent person is one who has let another person's behavior affect him or her, and who is obsessed with controlling that person's behavior.
The following two "Detach" journal entries will give you a crash course:
"An Answer to a Prayer" dated Nov 1, 2008 "How Did We Wind Up Here?" dated Nov 2, 2008
About This Journal
In 2008 I had the life changing realization that there was a name for what I'd always felt was "wrong" with me. After 20 years of thumbing through various self-help books. I learned about codependence.
I began writing this journal to document my journey out. Over time, it's evolved into something more. While I still talk about codependence (I know now, it will never totally leave me), this blog has turned into the thumbprint of my life; a therapeutic journal for me to sort out a lifetime of thoughts and memories. I believe in being honest with myself and others, and when something is bothering me, I reach out. With a support team of strong, smart women surrounding us, we can all continue to grow. I'm trying to live my best life, in pursuit of a Healthy Mind, a Healthy Body.