I feel strange today. Way too full of fat food and alcohol from the past few days, tired from a day and a half of cooking, and a little sad to see my out-of-town families head back out of town. It's been a good Thanksgiving weekend so far. I got to see my two little nephews from Minnesota, and also Kitty and her husband. Today I'm going to work on laundry and straighten the house. I have no desire to shop any after Thanksgiving sales, or start putting out Christmas decorations. I just want to be quiet today, I think. There are no sports practices or games today. No dinners or obligations, and that's perfectly fine with me.
My brain is having those flurries of activity that can sometimes drive me nuts. Replaying the events of the past few days--wondering if I said and did things the right way. Wondering if the food I prepared was good enough, wondering if I opened my mouth a couple of times when I should have kept it shut. Wondering if the time I spent with the people I care about had enough "quality" to it. Worrying about worrying so much, and analyzing everything. Kate, my counselor, tells me not to over think things. I do it anyway....a lot. Too much.
Anyway, I'm going to try to let these thoughts go today; at least for a few hours. I'm going to try to enjoy my family, and relax. I'm going to try to live in the moment, and not worry about what I did the past few days, or try to predict what will happen tomorrow.
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