21 days have come and gone. I wish I could say I stuck with the food cleanse 100%, but that would be a lie.
I was very diligent with it for the first week or so, and I did reap some nice benefits. I lost some weight and I felt really good. I haven't eaten that much healthy food in a few years. but no change in my itching or my rash, so I slowly began to add foods like dairy, sugar, and alcohol back into my diet. I have managed to break myself free of most processed foods again, which I hope to continue. I feel so much better when I don't eat crap.
As for the rash, I guess I will just wait now and see what the patch testing shows in July.
I'm still all messed up from what I'm calling the "nut incident". These bumps won't be going away for a while. I stayed clear for several days, so I reintroduced a couple of foods. I guess I got too certain of myself and introduced to many things at once. So now I can't be sure what caused the fresh ones. I itch all the time and I still look like a monster.
On another subject, my children are in the middle of a wonderful vacation at Kitty's house in South Florida. These days without them given me a peek into what life will be like when they move away in a few short years. I don't like it at all. I'm not quite certain what will become of me at that time. But this is not making me happy.
A codependent person is one who has let another person's behavior affect him or her, and who is obsessed with controlling that person's behavior.
The following two "Detach" journal entries will give you a crash course:
"An Answer to a Prayer" dated Nov 1, 2008 "How Did We Wind Up Here?" dated Nov 2, 2008
About This Journal
In 2008 I had the life changing realization that there was a name for what I'd always felt was "wrong" with me. After 20 years of thumbing through various self-help books. I learned about codependence.
I began writing this journal to document my journey out. Over time, it's evolved into something more. While I still talk about codependence (I know now, it will never totally leave me), this blog has turned into the thumbprint of my life; a therapeutic journal for me to sort out a lifetime of thoughts and memories. I believe in being honest with myself and others, and when something is bothering me, I reach out. With a support team of strong, smart women surrounding us, we can all continue to grow. I'm trying to live my best life, in pursuit of a Healthy Mind, a Healthy Body.