If you know Scarlett, you know that she has a lot of stuff. She saves items from concerts, trips, and events. She still has all her childhood toys and school lunch boxes, books, and magazines. Most of these items can be found pretty quickly. She could produce just about any item she's looking for in a matter of a few minutes. But occasionally Scarlett loses something. And when she does, it's no secret, a bit of panic ensues. Scarlett has often written about her full scale searches for assorted items in her blog. Sometimes the whole family gets in on the search. But until the lost item is found, Scarlett is a mess.
I'm writing about this because driving in to work this morning, I realized this is exactly how I feel right now. Inside the hurricane which is my head, I feel like I'm frantically searching for a lost item. Problem is; I'm not sure what the item is, which makes the search for it utterly exhausting. I only know I can't find it, and I want it back.
I started to assemble a search party, but I decided it just has to be me who finds it on my own.
A codependent person is one who has let another person's behavior affect him or her, and who is obsessed with controlling that person's behavior.
The following two "Detach" journal entries will give you a crash course:
"An Answer to a Prayer" dated Nov 1, 2008 "How Did We Wind Up Here?" dated Nov 2, 2008
About This Journal
In 2008 I had the life changing realization that there was a name for what I'd always felt was "wrong" with me. After 20 years of thumbing through various self-help books. I learned about codependence.
I began writing this journal to document my journey out. Over time, it's evolved into something more. While I still talk about codependence (I know now, it will never totally leave me), this blog has turned into the thumbprint of my life; a therapeutic journal for me to sort out a lifetime of thoughts and memories. I believe in being honest with myself and others, and when something is bothering me, I reach out. With a support team of strong, smart women surrounding us, we can all continue to grow. I'm trying to live my best life, in pursuit of a Healthy Mind, a Healthy Body.