It's funny, but ever since my husband and I had our talk last Saturday, I've hardly had any racing thoughts or swirling in my brain. No anxiety attacks, very little crazy, distorted thinking. I wish now we had talked months ago.
I'm still not sure where my path will take me in the coming weeks and months, but for now I feel good. I feel content and happy. Sometimes saying what's on your mind can be very freeing; especially when the person you speak it to says they agree with you. Suddenly all the anxiety and worry that I experienced, dreading the conversation, is lifted.
It's amazing how much clearer I can see, as the fog in my head and heart is beginning to lift.
A codependent person is one who has let another person's behavior affect him or her, and who is obsessed with controlling that person's behavior.
The following two "Detach" journal entries will give you a crash course:
"An Answer to a Prayer" dated Nov 1, 2008 "How Did We Wind Up Here?" dated Nov 2, 2008
About This Journal
In 2008 I had the life changing realization that there was a name for what I'd always felt was "wrong" with me. After 20 years of thumbing through various self-help books. I learned about codependence.
I began writing this journal to document my journey out. Over time, it's evolved into something more. While I still talk about codependence (I know now, it will never totally leave me), this blog has turned into the thumbprint of my life; a therapeutic journal for me to sort out a lifetime of thoughts and memories. I believe in being honest with myself and others, and when something is bothering me, I reach out. With a support team of strong, smart women surrounding us, we can all continue to grow. I'm trying to live my best life, in pursuit of a Healthy Mind, a Healthy Body.