Vacation Journal

Yesterday I came to the pool by myself for a couple of hours. There was no one else here, and I swim around, relaxed and reflected. I thought back to the last time I was here. I remember writing in this journal, that as I swam back and forth across the pool, I said out loud, "I will find peace in this day, in this hour, in this minute". 

I distinctly remember how I felt at that time. So much anxiety inside me! I could not relax. I was worried all the time. In the   year and a half since, a lot has changed Some things have not. However, I do realize that I no longer suffer from the massive ongoing anxiety that I had in October, 2011. My main obstacle right now is confusion, and that "mountain in the middle".